So....how did we know???

Throughout this journey I would often question......God how will we know?  How will we know You are definitely calling us to adopt.  How will we know when to start?  How will we know which agency to go with?  How will we know which child is ours?  These questions would often waft through my mind and often I would read or hear others say, "You just know."

Well, there were many times God made it clear...BUT.....we had to be listening.  If we were listening, we had to be willing to follow!!!  For me, it was easy!!  God placed in my heart this inquenchable desire to adopt.  I don't know why He placed it there when He did OR why He had me wait so long, but I truly think that if it wasn't from Him, it would have been a passing thought in my mind....the fire would have snuffed out.  I do believe it is possible for something like this to become an idol....and there were times when that was a concern in my mind......it was hard, but I HAD to keep giving this whole adoption idea back to God. 

December 2009-March 2010, I was having an aweful time sleeping!!!  I would suddenly wake in the middle of the night thinking about orphans sleeping in an orphanage needing a family!  I would think about children needing medical care and not get it because they didn't have a family to care for them.  Many, many nights I lay awake agreeing with God that something NEEDS to be done!!  Just show me God I would say.  Well, one night after being so frustrated that I couldn't sleep and my husband was sleeping soundly beside me....he always does!!!!  Always sleeps like a baby, no matter what is going on!!!  I said, "YOU HAVE me!!!!!  Why do you keep ME awake???  Why don't you keep him awake???  I want to sleep!!!  KEEP HIM AWAKE!!!" 

I promptly forgot about my middle of the night prayer.  : )

A few days later, I was commenting to David how I slept the BEST I had in years!!!!  I was sleeping so soundly.....his response......"Well, that's weird because last night I couldn't sleep at all!!"  NO!!  I thought, couldn't be (chuckling inside).   Two weeks, I slept like I hadn't slept in a LONG time....but my hubby kept saying, "It's the weirdest thing, 39 years, I have NEVER had trouble sleeping and I just can't seem to sleep!"  I finally had to fess up about my prayer, "So I, over the next week started asking questions about what was going on when he couldn't sleep, maybe he should pray, etc.....  Finally, one night when David again brought up his inability to sleep I asked, "Do you want to know why you can't sleep?"  To which he replied, "It has NOTHING to do with adopting!"  So I told him about my middle of the night prayer to God.  "That's Funny he replied, VERY funny!!"  : )  God has a GREAT sense of humor!!! LOL!