So much to say, but ohhhhh.....how to put it all into words.

I saw a little one that is about the same age as our littlest one will be when we pick her up!  I am amazed at how I have forgotten how little one year olds are!!  Oh my heart ached and I just want to hold her, squeeze her and kiss those sweet chubby cheeks!!  You know what is amazing though?!?  This wait is (or at least has been so far) MUCH easier than waiting to be on the path to adopting.  In the months leading up to our journey, God ignited a fire!!  Imagine sitting in church trying so hard to NOT cry this week!!  Just when I would think I had it made, something unexpected would have me in tears as God reminded me once again how much He loves the fatherless!!  Try as I might, I could not hold back the flood of tears each week as EVERY sermon seemed to speak directly to me about children living in orphanages without families.  There were times when I KNEW God was calling us....and times when I doubted.  There were times when I clung to God, yelled at God and sobbed with Him!!  In the midst of the wait, a friend told me a story.  I can't remember most of it but one quote stuck with me, "Don't give up 5 minutes before the miracle."  So to all those with a fire in your heart, who have heard the plight of the orphan, who have gotten a glimpse of God's deep love for the fatherless, I say, "Don't give up five minutes before the miracle!!"  Our miracle awaits 1/2 a world away....but we're coming....sleep well little one.....we're on our way!!!