Blessed

I am often asked how things are going here at This Little House.  If you are the fortunate sole to be daring enough to ask that question, depending on the day/hour/minute, you may get drastically different responses.  : )  Events around here can "change on a dime" it seems.  To some, it probably seems chaotic....okay to many it IS chaotic.  I'll admit, I was feeling the frustration last evening.  You know it's crazy how I will have a great day, accomplish a lot and feel on top of the world when suddently, I am looking around wondering, "What----just-----happened.  How does it happen????  I am peacefully making supper and all is well.   THEN the phone rings....still all is well, then suddenly I have one child tattling on the other, the doorbell ringing, supper burning, baby crying, siblings arguing, cell phone ringing AND I have JUST spilt a measuring cup of milk all over myself, baby and definitely MOST frustrating my JUST swept and super scrubbed kitchen floor from the part of the day where I was accomplishing a lot.  ugh!!!! 

THAT'S when my head started to feel as though it was going to explode and how supper came to be ready at 7:30.  It was my turn to pray at supper when I suddenly hear the sound of running water.........from the HIGHCHAIR!!!!!  "Moo" (the chinese word for potty) quietly came next.  My dinnertime prayer?  "Lord give us, (pause because I truly don't know what to ask for) I don't know what,.....STRENGTH."  All the children and hubby too thought this was funny but to me it was truly prayer of desperation inside. 

You know when I think about it......THIS isn't easy, it's painfully hard some days.  There are times when I think, "oh my gosh, I am going to be HOW OLD when the kids are grown?!?!?!"  You know the feeling where.......sitting in the corner in the fetal position, rocking back and forth begins to sound WONDERFUL!!! : )  It was just at that point that God gently reminded me of how much more painful it was to know there are orphans in need of families and how EXCRUTIATING it was to wait to adopt and that my life isn't about me.  WAIT a second....What you talkin bout Willis????  Life really isn't about me???  He then reminds me of how life must be for those little ones without a Mommy to tuck them in and smother them with kisses.  And I think I have it tough.

God then gently reminds me that life is about HIM!!!!  Life is about loving God and our neighbor.  It's about following wherever He leads.  Life is about leaning on Him when the chaos erupts.

I am so thankful!!  Just when the pressure in my head has reached "uh oh" level.  God helped me step back from the "chaos" and see just what it is He is doing.  He is helping us raise HIS children.  THEN he gives me a tender moment with my 6 year old, my 14 year old tells me I'm like a super hero (REALLY.....I didn't even make her say it, honest.  LOL), my 8 year old prays and insists only a miracle would help and sees the prayer answered, a little sweetie brought 1/2 way around the world to be with us, has 2 amazing days of progress, we are able to see prayers being answered for Pa. 

He has blessed us, I don't know why.....we certainly don't deserve one bit of it.....but He has blessed us anyway.  It's just the way He works.  He loves us and desires to bless us.....if I can only step back from the chaos and have eyes to see.  Eyes to focus on all the blessings He freely gives...some of which He allows me to see, a few of which I choose to see, many of which I will never see.

So how are things at This Little House?  This Little House is thankful to be blessed.