Fast forward............eh hem.....22 years!! Twenty-two years. Geesh! There were times when I could have screamed and did at God! There were times when I was at my limit with waiting. There were times when I had a lot going on and didn't think about the plight of orphans. I do remember, at times, the intensity of my frustration with the waiting. Through this waiting, God taught me that this was not MY journey. This was His journey. IF it was going to happen, it was going to be because HE brought us to this journey. It would have nothing to do with me and certainly not because I was good enough. He would take us on this journey only when it was evident it was His plan. There was a lot of ugliness within my heart (and still is). I was impatient and demanding. All the while, God was teaching me about Him. He was patient, loving and gentle. All of which I lacked. Thinking back, I must have been a pretty hard case to have to wait 22 years to get to the end of myself. :) All the while there was a tugging and longing that I believed (and still do) God placed there, otherwise my selfishness would certainly have taken hold and we wouldn't be where we are today. It is only by His grace!!
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